The only real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes, but in having new eyes.
                        - Marcel Proust

Saturday, June 28, 2008

Links: 6.27.08

The End of Public Sex
Why isn't anyone fucking anymore?
by Steve Weinstein

4 Types of Women Men Avoid
I think this is funny!

Ny Times

Photo by dietrich

Friday, June 27, 2008

Friday Morning Wood

TGIF & Pride Weekend!

wOoOo hOoOo bAbY!

I woke up with a lot of wood and very horny, so I had to do what comes natural...and it felt so good.

Masturbation starts the day off right.

i fReAkIn lUv U gUyS,

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

hApPy hAlF-nEkKiD tHuRSdAy


I decided to use the same undies as last week, but in a different color since they were such a hit.

 I also had an email request for an ass shot.....

Bottoms Up!

I freakin luv you guys,

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Trying To Understand Pain & Sexual Arousal, As Well As Unwanted Emotions From Certain Types Of Play

I was asked this question recently by Wendy, "what activities were Andrea and you into?" 

I had mentioned in previous posts that we had a very sensual dynamic to our play. We did not engage in things like CBT, humiliation, hitting, kicking or anything else that might be considered violent or torturous acts. Our activities were foot and body worship, nipple torture-not severe, strap-on play and sexual acts like rimming and orgasm denial. I was spanked, flogged and canned whenever she deemed necessary.  I always enjoyed it, and there was a certain way that she went about performing it. She would say to me in a stern, but sexy voice, "I do not want to do this, but you leave me no choice - if you were home with me last night I would have slept better and not been forced to do this to you." She would use her hand mostly to spank me, and always over her knee - it really turned me on.

I had tasks that I did everyday: draw her a bath, bathe her, pet her till she fell asleep (something I started to help her sleep better because of the anxiety she would feel because of a fear of bad dreams about her sexual abuse as a child). I cooked, cleaned and basically pampered her like a Goddess.

As our relationship progressed certain things were added to our lives like, watersports, sex and especially oral during mensuration, and very intense sensory deprivation. All of those activities were performed in a manner to bring us closer together. There was no, "drink my piss bitch" - it was taking part of her into me through the exchange of body fluids resulting in a closeness that both of us thrived on. Very intense feelings of love were exchanged during those activities. Till today I have never felt closer to anyone than I did at those times.

After we split up I found a play partner in Atlanta, and she basically beat the hell out of me while I zoned out. We never had sex, and till today I feel that I  was only there because I was hurting so badly - it was cathartic. Later on I met another dominant woman that had some of the sensual characteristics of Andrea, as well as a sadistic side. Our sex and play were kept somewhat separate. Sex was the reward for being obedient. I had a lot of other women later on that were not exactly dominant, but enjoyed breaking out of the vanilla role and getting kinky - strap-on play, tying me up etc.  
I never craved the pain aspect of BDSM. I like more of the sensual side with some ruff play that may hurt, but lately I have been exposed to different elements of the scene. While playing with Wendy, she decided to torture my nipples - 3 small clothespins that she flicked with her nails, pulled, twisted etc. Was I turned on? Yes, but as the pain became more intense I lost my arousal. It seems that my focus shifted from being turned on by the play, to concentrating on how intense the pain had become and I lost my arousal (including the erection). My nipples actually slightly bled. Now, I am not complaining because it was enjoyable in a different way. Maybe if we switched to something a little more sensual it would have returned, but I really don't know. She also likes to bite me, mostly on my shoulders, and I really enjoy it, and it hurts at times. Again it turns me on, but not like non-painful acts. Kissing someone, worshipping their body, feet etc. can get me rock hard in a second, and I don't know if I see that happening with pain. 

Something else I noticed about myself this weekend is how a certain act can rile me in a manner that is not expected. For example - I had the pleasure of meeting Jefferson this weekend at LPN, and while Wendy and I were chatting with him, he punched me in the chest a few times. My initial reaction was to stay calm and I did, but I had a feeling of apprehension. It brought out that street mentality that someone is hitting me and I need to fight back. Possibly this is an initial reaction that people experience the first time they are presented with impact play, or maybe I was just caught of guard. I grew up in a tuff neighborhood and had to learn to defend myself.  I've had my share of fights and I really hate violence, but if provoked I will defend myself. Not that Jefferson provoked me, but the impact brought that emotion out of me. I don't know how I feel about impact play, it brings out defensive feelings in me. Spanking is one thing, but being punched or kicked I don't know about. I also do not see myself submitting to a male, because to me it feels like losing - competitive streak from playing sports.  For me to be in a BDSM scene with another a male, it would be me being submissive with another male(also submissive) to a dominant women.

I also learned in the past week from Sakura how much shabari interests me and turns me on. Being tied and wanting to learn how to do the tying - I think it's an expression of my creative side.

In conclusion, I always share my truest feelings with you and I never hold back. This is what has been going through my mind for a while, and I am working through it and sharing it with you. 

Have you felt this way or in a similar manner? 

Luv ya,

Monday, June 23, 2008

Leather Pride Night

So, I went to LPN @ Splash this weekend, and I had so much, I mean SO MUCH fun. I volunteered to work the door with Michael, a really sweet guy that I met that night. I really enjoyed greeting all the sexy people coming in, and getting to be one of the first to welcome them to the party. I love meeting new people, and when those individuals are so happy and proud to be who they are, it makes me proud to be who I am and part of this wonderful community - thank you Lolita for the opportunity.

Wendy and Sakura tried to tie me in a chest harness, but there wasn't enough of rope for my impressive physique...LOL! So, we opted for gauntlets on my arms, which were so damn sexy I did not want to take them off.  While I was being tied a lot of men stopped and tried to get me to loose some clothing. I am not shy by any means, but I opted to stay clothed, and now I kind of regret it. If it was blasting house music and disco balls I would have been skin to the wind baby, but the leather was intimidating me a little bit - LOL. 

The bartenders were beyond good looking, they were HOT! There was this one guy working the bar downstairs that literally made me drool - I am definitely going back to try and hook up with him!

Afterwards we went for some food with Escapade, Sascha and P. ....all great people and can not wait to hangout with them again.

All in all, I had a great time and can not wait to next year.

Luv ya,


Friday, June 20, 2008


This Week’s Picks

“Frozen, I wait for your next move.”

Balanced on the tip of my tongue
“Pushing her into the bedroom, I stripped her bare swiftly, laid her out on the bed.”

Impertinent Question: Do You Enjoy Spanking?
“That’s what we call Wednesday night!”

Mr. Sugasm Himself
Sugar Bank

Editor’s Choice
The Source of All Waters

More Sugasm
Join the Sugasm

See also: Fleshbot’s Sex Blog Roundup each Tuesday and Friday.

BDSM & Fetish
He loves me
Intimacy and BDSM
The Lilith Obsession, Part the First
Mr. and Mrs. Kink’s Unbelievably Good Sex Last Night
Online Auction Snafu - F/m Spanking Pics
Other World Kingdom visit - Part 7
r’s naughty thoughts on submission, fetishes, and enemas
Vacation story
Weekends. part 1
Why I’ve Never Gone To A Pro-Domme..Why I Might Someday

Sex & Politics
Condoms for Everybody! No?
To Choke a Chicken

Erotic Writing and Experiences
3 days, 3 guys (Part 1)
Catalina loves Oral Sex With Mr. F
A Day at the Fair
Hot Hotel Bang: Key West
In Which Penny Receives Kisses That Exceed Expectations
My Usual Friday
Proudly fucked at the pride

NSFW Pics, Videos & Audio
And the Award for Most Beautiful Breasts in the World Goes To…
Fetish Model Charlotte Brooke In Serious Encasement, Full Enclosure, Gas Mask Scene
January Seraph in Corset and Collar
Half-Nekkid in a New Corset
I Love Amsterdam girls alone on video
Kim Sharma Looking Sexy in Chemise and Tiny Shorts
Live hidden Carmen gets wet in Zoo Promo
Making Porn With Nikki On The Lord’s Day
Mz. Berlin In The Sun With The Family
One Tuff Babe -HNT
Sex And The Kitty
Toy Time

Sex News, Reviews & Interviews
Asian Fetish Model Jandi Lin, Sarah Jane Ceylon,and Mistress Claire Adams Get Fucked Up On Device Bondage
Book Review: Jenny Block’s Open
German Porn
I Can’t Stand “Sex And The City”
PullJoy© Book Review: Don’t Use My Sweater Like a Towel
Review of Astro Vibe
Sex News Roundup

Sex Work
Princess Back Online!!

Thoughts on Sex and Relationships
Desire Its Cascading Flaming Passion to a trickling flicker
Finishing with a Bang
Letting Go
Shopping basket
Why do you Love “The City” So Much(with a twist to the story)??

Sex Advice
The sofa-sexual masturbator: couch copulation and furniture fucking examined

Friday Morning Wood


I forgot to snap the pic of the wood, but remembered while shaving. 

So, it isn't hard wood, but it's something.

TGIF Baby,

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

hApPy hAlF-nEkKiD tHuRSdAy


Busy, Busy, Busy!

My life has been so hectic with this new office and trying to come up with the finances to buy in, but I always have time for friends and HNT!

I don't usually buy banana hammocks, but these puma undies are so comfy.

Last night Wendy Blackheart and Sakura Sarashi and I  went to TES for a Barbara Nitke Exhibit, and then to a pub on bleeker to have some drinks and fun. 

Sakura used her shabari magic to tie me up in the bar......we had some laughs and funny stares, but it was well worth it.!

We are the new and improved ultra kinky 3 Amigos!

I freakin luv you guys!

Friday, June 13, 2008

Friday Morning Wood

Another phone pic, I am just too lazy to get the camera etc at 6am. 
These new earlier hours are hard to get used to. 
It seems everyone likes the hand in the undies pics, so here is another one. 


Luv ya,

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Jane's Guide - Review of My Blog

Thank you Vamp and Janes's Guide for the very appreciated review.


This blog is written by Marcello, a thirty-something pansexual male from New York. Can I just say that I adore this guy? He writes about his sexuality, which includes a submissive nature. He talks openly and honestly about his foot fetish, love of anal play, and exploration of his own fluid sexuality. One of the most wonderful things about this blog, however, is his discussion of non-sexual male intimacy and vulnerability. Here is one of my favorite things that he wrote, "My point being - as men we have a right to make sure our friends are Ok - mentally, physically and sexually...We need to get to the point in our male-male friendships where sensitivity and openness between us is not perceived as weird, but healthy." That is fabulous! All this sound and sensitive commentary, and nice naked pictures to boot. What is there to complain about? Great blog! - Vamp

Date Reviewed: 2008-06-12"

Luv you and much thanks again,

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

hApPy hAlF-nEkKiD tHuRSdAy


hApPy hAlF-nEkKiD tHuRSdAy

I am so glad you guys are part of my life. Each and every one of you put a big smile on my face with each comment, email, meetup etc...

I freakin luv you guys!

Extra pics just for you this week.

Luv ya,

Monday, June 9, 2008

Why do you Love "The City" So Much(with a twist to the story)??

Sunday afternoon I was at a BBQ/Christening and one of my oldest friends asked me this, "why do you love 'the city' and hate Staten Island so much." I gave him this response.

First, I do not hate Staten Island, I just prefer not to live here. Before moving to Atlanta I lived in Hoboken, then the lower east side, and now after moving back, I jumped at an offer for a free apartment in my parents house. It enabled me to get on my feet, save some money, and give me time to look for what I really want. Plus I was also working on the island. 

Second, Staten Island is the evil stepchild of the five boroughs, cut off from the city because of a non-direct route of entry. There is no one way to enter Manhattan. It is either a bus or train, then the ferry followed by a train again depending on where you are headed. Driving is two bridges or a bridge and tunnel. It is a borough ruled by driving, and I do not want to own a car anymore. I want to be able to use the MTA ($150 month on insurance + $300mo. car payment and $80/wk for gas = $770 for me, and I am helping out the environment).  

Third, Manhattan has variety, it is lively, open 24hrs and it is where most of my friends live except you and a few others who moved to Jersey and I never get to see unless it is an occasion like this. I just love the hustle and bustle of Manhattan, and Brooklyn where I work now. It is nice seeing people walking up and down streets, Staten Island loses that and....

Friend: Cuts me off and said, "Yeah, but ya know they are all freaks and fags in the kinda have those gay mannerisms about you too."

Me: "Well that would make sense since I am bisexual and hang out with 'freaks and fags'."

Friend: "What the fuck?"

Me: "Problem?"

Friend: "No, but are you serious?"

Me: "Yes!"

Friend: "I am sorry for the fag comment, you know I didn't mean it like that."

Me: "Well then how did you mean it?"

Friend: "I don't know, it is just something I say.... I don't know, can we just forget about it."

Me: "Sure, but in the future think about what you say before you say it, you can not take back words once they are said."

Friend: "Honestly, I am sorry."

Me: "Ok." 

We hug it out in that straight guy, pat on the back, ass sticking out kind of way. I then see him walk over to his wife, they chat, she is shaking her head at him as she walks over to me.

Friend's Wife: "He's an asshole, are you ok?"

Me: "Yes, but please don't make a big deal about it."

Friend's Wife: "Does everyone here know?"

Me: "No, I have been telling people as questions are asked, or if they find out on their own." 

Friend's Wife: "You know I love you, right?"

Me: "Of Course!"

Friend's Wife: "You know he likes me sticking things in his ass."

Me: "That's fantastic!"

Friend's Wife: "You think he is gay? It started after your Christmas gift of that book by Violet Blue - we thought it was a gag gift, but you were serious with it....huh."

Me: laughing "You know, whatever, but seriously it is healthy and it does not make him gay."

Friend's Wife: "Call me if you need to talk ever, we never see each other anymore."

Me: " I will, love you too."

So, that was my Sunday afternoon along with a few remarks about the bite marks on my left anterior shoulder and the hickey on my left trapezius." Fun Saturday!

Fun Sunday! I am curious to see how long before I hear from him. 


Friday, June 6, 2008

Friday Morning Wood

OK, I'm back with the wood!
I took it with my phone this morning, so I am  sorry about the crappy size and quality.

TGIF Baby!!!!

luv ya,


Wednesday, June 4, 2008

hApPy hAlF-nEkKiD tHuRSdAy


This will finish up my photos from last weeks shower series.

I am at the NYC Pleasure Salon Meet Up, chilling with friends and meeting new ones, so if  I do not get around to comment on your beautiful HNT pics tonight, it will happen tomorrow.

Luv ya,

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Andrea and I: The Not So Final Chapter

The first 4 parts of the series are here:

This post has been a long time coming. These are the answers to a few emailed questions about my D/s relationship with Mistress Andrea, and why it ended if we still love each other so much.

I had mentioned in previous posts that we were totally engrossed in each other to the point that nothing around us mattered. We would literally loose track of time (days) - I would have been happy living naked in a cardboard box with her. 

We hated being apart, and when we were together we were always on top of each other. Intercourse was weird because she was sexually abused as a child and identified herself as being mostly lesbian, even when we were together. But there was something that drew her to me and me to her. She was always on top and controlled our rhythm, and a lot of times I would just enter her and we would lay side by side kissing and caressing each other. I had no problems with any of this, but there would be weeks that she did not want to have any penetration, and I was always supportive, but yearned for that closeness. The best way to describe how we felt is to explain it like this - as much as I loved her I could never get close enough to her, and she felt the same way; we wanted to take our passion and love to another realm.

After being together for about a year we started experimenting with drugs: ecstacy, special k, LSD, cocaine etc. It was part of our party life style - sex, drugs and music. I was dj-ing every night or working in recording studios, and she was a club podium dancer. We were very popular, invited everywhere, given everything and enjoyed it all, but we were destroying our lives. My parents did not approve of her, but accepted her and never made her feel uncomfortable except one time, and I told them if they ever did that again it would be the last they would ever hear or see of me. I loved her so much I would have disowned my parents.

We eventually were able to move past the drugs and substituted it with exploring deeper aspects of BDSM: sex, and especially oral during mensuration; severe sensory deprivation (at least to me), piercing etc.

At around the two year mark she wanted to travel Europe and I was ready to pack up and go with her, but after a life altering experience (read this post, if you haven't) I decide to move to Atlanta for school. We stayed together in a long distance relationship for a short time and then lost touch for about 6mos when she finally made it to europe. After reconnecting we shared a common feeling that we were soul mates, but in a different way; we not meant to be together in the traditional sense, but instead intimate friends on a spiritual journey that would never end.

Today she lives in Paris with her wife, they are very happy, just had a baby boy - Marcello *big grin*. I turned her down to donate my sperm because she has no intentions of ever returning to the USA, and I could not deal with not being able to love and see my child often. She understood and felt the same way. We talk every few weeks via the internet, and phone about 1x month. She is a very special person to me and holds a place in my heart forever. She helped me mature and become who I am today, and she continues to guide me. She says that I renewed her life, faith and love in humanity - I helped her heal. 

Do I miss her? Yes! Do I regret anything? Hell No! Do I wish we were together? At this point in my life, No, but if you asked me that up to about 8 years ago I would have said, yes.

I love you Andrea...


Sunday, June 1, 2008

A Few Ruff Weeks, But I Am Back To Me!

So as I promised, I am writing this post to let you all know what has been happening in the life of Marcello.

After returning from Punta Cana on May 13th, my life was being pulled in many directions. Prior to vacation I was working 3- 3 1/2 days a week at a chiropractic office in Staten Island, but it was not a good place for me. I was not excelling, and I was not happy  living or working on Staten Island. Reality kicked in as the sand between my toes disappeared and I was faced with some post-vacation blues. To top it off I met an amazing girl on vacation, and she lives on the other side of the world with her boyfriend - my luck. 

So, I decided to really give this new office in Brooklyn that I interviewed at before leaving for Punta Cana a serious consideration. I took the job, but kept the S.I. office also. I went from working a few days a week to 6 days a week and almost 70hrs. I finally decided on Friday that the office in Brooklyn is where I belong, so that area of my life is settled. Now, I need to move off of Staten Island and into Manhattan; if any of you know of any reasonably priced apartments (Chelsea, Village area or anywhere else) please let me know. 1200/mo, I might even be able to swing 1500.

My personal life is also been a little weird. I returned from vacation and lost my sex drive for about 10 days, but I am happy to say it is back with a vengeance LOL! Rob (ambi bi-guy)and I have been chilling quite a bit together. I like him! That is weird to me still, because I never thought that my interest in guys would lead to a possible relationship. I thought my my attraction was mostly sexual. So, there is some stress in the fact that he is totally out, and I feel I am not because my parents/family does not know. He is not big on the sex-blogging, BDSM, open relationship ideas - so I don't know where this is going, but I am honest with him, and him me, and we are enjoying the moment. Amanda and Desiree get back from vacation next week, they went to Miami for 2 weeks that is why you have not heard much about them.

Friday Night was 18 shades of awesome. I met MsLily and Her Knight at their hotel, we headed to Son Cubano for dinner, then Lotus for some drinks and  music. We strolled around the city, and I had such a wonderful time with them. Truly beautiful people, friends forever!

In conclusion, I am still my usual self just extra busy. That is why I have not had anytime to write. This week my life will be a lot more settled. I have a few posts coming up: Tuesday, a short post about why Mistress Andrea and I are no longer together (answer to an emailed question); Wednesday a sex toy review for Babeland; Thursday HNT, Friday Morning Wood; Saturday - Review of Eon Mckai's Doll Underground.

Last note : If any of you reading this still have not joined Fetlife, get your ass there now.

luv ya guys,

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